Used to be anorexic and then bulimic - this was years ago. Recently have been over eating, mainly in evenings. But nothing that hugely affects quality of life. Been very stressed recently and have had the desire to make myself sick. Have resisted, until this evening. Was really stressed out and in tears, tried a cigraette instead - they are much easier to give up than bulimia. But I have just made myself sick. I feel much calmer now. I am amazed at how easily I was able to do it.
All those familiar feelings of being able to focus on being sick instead of how I am feeling. Feel physically a bit shakey, and my throat hurts but I am glad I did it. I shouldn't though - I should feel ashamed and disgusted. Why has this given me such a thril? Sitting sipping cold water and I feel much better now I have got all this evenings food out of myself. I don't want to get in to this again, but its like a comfy old slipper.
Anyone been through similar?
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Slipery slope back to bulimia?
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justcantstop · 02/12/2009 22:35
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