So brief background;
Split up with H after very tumultuous few years. Still connection there but filing for divorce. Don't want to but need to.
Been carrying on with my LO, suffering stress, anxiety etc.
Been to therapy, anxiety related condition - OCD. Had terrible year so far of spiking, but been carrying on with everything.
All of a sudden, WHAM. Can't do it anymore. Can't cope. Functioning on the outside, smiling, people would think I'm fine, ok. Inside I'm literally dead. And now the inside is catching up with the outside.
I want to go and sleep for days, I need a break, I don't truly admit to people how I feel but my close family knows.
I'm doubting everything I've ever known, my faith, my life, I want to move, I feel trapped, I feel like I've failed, I have CONSTANT thoughts going round in my head where I can't get away from them unless I sleep.
People want to help me, I don't want help, I want to be left alone, I don't want to discuss it, I dont even know if I believe what I used to believe anymore but I can't cope with worrying about it because it's too much. I feel like I have to address everything but I can't. I want to stop worrying people I want to run away.
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arghiwantabreak · 17/11/2009 11:07
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