Hi, thanks for replying to my post. Just read your other thread about seeing the counsellor tomorrow. I've had counselling myself before for anxiety issues so totally understand you not being able to sleep the night before.
Speaking to the counsellor about it will help, even if its tough going for a while.
Sorry I'm not much help, can't think straight with tiredness!
The counsellor is really lovely, and yes, she is definitely helping. Well, except she has set me off on destructive behaviour, but i'm sure it's temporary whilst I am working through it. Not pleasant, and I am wondering where I shall get the strength from tomorrow with the children.
I have decided to ring a friend in the morning, see if she can visit in the afternoon to pass the time and have some company.
Good. I had horrible PND and anxiety after DS's birth. There were days when I couldn't bear to be alone. I was always so grateful for girlfriends who came and spent time with me and didn't expect me to be stellar company.
I'm multitasking - making a curry for dinner at the same time as talking to you.
By "destructive behaviour", you mean...? Very bad things or less-bad like overeating?
hope you're asleep now twoisplenty but I can offer some hopeful info if you like - sometimes when we are working through stuff, for it to work the best, we sort of go backwards through our experiences until we reach the point where we were whole and healthy. I always used to describe it like peeling the layers off an onion: when you are born, you are like the tiny germinal centre in the middle of an onion - all your experiences after that create a new layer of the onion, so the only way to get back successfully is to peel each layer away. This can have the unfortunate effect of revisiting the symptoms of the experience (as you are finding) but it is like the ghost of the experience - it doesn't have the same impact and usually fades after a few days.
Good luck with your counsellor and I hope my onion theory has helped a bit!
<waves at JM - still supposed to be working here...>
Thanks. Well I didn't sleep much, just 20 minutes here and there. But I feel a bit calmer now I am up and about. Things always feel worse in the night.
Thanks for the onion theory. It does make sense in that I was thinking this was a temporary nasty throwback to years ago. It's a shock to be in this position, but counselling I think brings the worst out in you, before you can clear the rubbish away, and find a healthy person inside.
I am ready to hear what my counsellor says, because I can't face going on like this. <feeling braver>
Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you. If I have the time difference right you'll be going to your appointment at 9:30 am my time - will be thinking of you and mentally holding your hand. You can do it. <cheers and waves pompoms> (((HUG)))