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I'm going to see the doctor this afternoon as I feel the depression is back- will I have to 'convince' her?

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cupofteaplease Tue 25-Aug-09 10:39:45

I suffered PND after the birth of both my children, but weaned myself off of Citalopram a year ago.

I really feel that I am not coping, and I am slipping back to my old ways (I haven't had another baby, but I did have a mmc in April- connected? I've no idea.)

I feel the anxiety is too much again- I get jumpy going to the supermarket, as I worry people are looking at me and judging me, I have low self esteem- hate everything about myself pretty much, I over analyse things that people say to me or do, I try to second guess what other poeple think all the time, I'm irrationally angry with my dh the majority of the time which is causing a huge strain on our marriage and I'm snappy and over critical of my darling children, which is not the mother I want to be. I can't get to sleep, nor stay asleep, and I am terribly unmotivated, despite starting my first teaching job next week. All in all, I'm feeling a big, low mess. sad

What shall I say to the doc? I've never seen this one before and I'm worried she'll write off what I say, as it's clearly not PND which I think they 'accept' more easily. I'm scared about her sending me away with a pat on the head and my tail between my legs as I feel I NEED the help of ADs again- I just want to feel on top of my life again.

Umlellala Tue 25-Aug-09 10:45:39

Hello, sorry to hear of your mmc. You sound like me at the moment. Went to doctor last week, was told to exercise and google mood gym. Now while it looks v good, I am like you, felt I needed just something to help me begin to get back to normal.

I went back today and was more insistent that I couldn't cope and needed something. I let myself 'look' a bit more of a mess too (usually I keep v together and calm which i think doesn't help iykwim). I have been referred for counselling too which I wanted but that's not going to be for at least a month or two... was scared how I was going to function when dh goes back to work next week (we are both teachers too - me supply though). Think going back to normal routine might help a bit.

try to be as honest as possible I think and say what you have said here. You might have to be a little insistent that you are not coping. Good luck and big unmumsnet hugs.

cupofteaplease Tue 25-Aug-09 18:36:51

Thanks for the support Umlella.

Went to the doc and she was lovely. She has put me back on ADs and has asked to see me in a fortnight. She said that various stressful situations have brought on depression, which I am susceptible to due to having PND twice before.

Let's hope I'll pick up soon.

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