how do you know it's depression?

[wanttobeannon]

Am a reasonably regular poster/reader of mumsnet but have name changed cos feel a bit embarressed asking this.
I have felt down for the last few weeks and can't seem to shake myself out of it. I keep thinking I'm just having a bad day and that I will feel better tomorrow but it doesn't change. I am really hoping that when the kids go back to school and we get routine back I will start to feel better again. I just feel I can't keep up with things and constantly feel guilty. I can't seem to relax always feel I should be doing something. Finding it hard to deal with the kids which is then having a negative impact on their behaviour which ofcourse then makes it even harder. I really wanted to enjoy the summer hols as I normally love them but if I am honest I haven't enjoyed this school holiday at all. At what point do you think this is more than being a bit down? I have tried to talk to dh about it but I don't think he understands how bad i'm feeling. On the surface it looks like I am coping and in general am a coping type person and I worry he is not taking me seriously. Had a bit of a meltdown at the weekend, started crying and couldn't stop. Dh was very sympathetic and supportive at that moment but as soon the next morning came it was as if it was all forgotten and I feel like he is not listening to me again. I really don't want to feel like this. i want to be my old self again.

[logi]

Hi try to see your doc,the sooner you get some help the quicker you can get to your old self dont let things carry on and become worse...dont feel embarressed,your only human there is nothing wrong in accepting/asking for help.

[angelcake99]

Hi, i just wanted to bump for you, and say I feel a bit like you do to. I think that once the children go back to school you might feel a bit better, it might give you a bit of space to clear your head. I'm looking forward to just going for a coffee in a nice place in town and having a casual browse around the shops/library without having to keep an eye on my seldest all of the time and feeling like a bickering fishwife lol

Hope you feel better soon