So there is just too much going on right now. Dealing with the pregnancy, the judgement about being pregnant in the first place - the comments about my age, my disability, my illness - my boyfriends illness, various events that have occurred recently that are just building up.
And in the past few weeks, especially this week, my boyfriend has started drinking heavily. This weekend it was two bottles of wine each night, tonight its been a full bottle of vodka, Monday I had to go "collect" him from a casual day at the office because he was too drunk to walk.
I love him so much, but he gets self destructive when he's been drinking, and as much as I want to be there, to help him, to protect him, and make everything okay for him, I just can't deal with it. The thing is... In the mornings after, he can't remember. Sunday night I had to take a knife off him while he begged me to let him cut himself, tonight he's been trying to force himself to be sick. Its just all too much.
I don't want to hurt his feelings, because he's trying so DAMN hard to get over everything before the baby is born, but I really just want to cry my heart out right now.
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Mental health
Getting me so down...
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ErikaMaye · 22/07/2009 22:41
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