I posted here before under a different name just after my DD was born... I thought I had PND but after a couple of weeks felt much better and thought it was just a bad case of baby blues..
DD is now 13 weeks. I love her.. I'm sure I do... I love my DH who is amazing.. but I just wish I wasn't here any more... I can't cope. I'm a crap mum and a crap wife and I just want to go to sleep and never wake up...
Everyone said that once DD got to 12 weeks she would become a different baby and everything would get easier... Well they got half of it right she did become a different baby. She just screams and screams it goes on for hours and I just want to smash my face into the nearest wall. It's driving me insane..
I can't cope I just can't.... Everyone elses babys are cooing and happy and mine is just so miserable and I wonder if Im missing tired signs or god knows what...
I hate being a mum I hate it.... I want to go back to work.. At least I was good at that..
I can't believe that 13 weeks in Im still sat on edge next to the baby monitor waiting for the screams to start...
Don't need any replies... Just needed to vent.. I know Im going to have to speak to the HV again..
I can't explain how I feel.. I don't think it's PND. I just feel like im stuck in a nightmare and it's not one that I can escape.. Can't remember the last time she didnt scream all evening..
I know this is awful please don't flame me but I wish I had never had her.. It feels like the worst thing I have ever done...
I don't think I was cut out to be a mum....
Please don't flame me.......
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I just don't want to wake up anymore
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Roopoo · 19/07/2009 17:30
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