I am not doing very well atm and am struggling to contain self-destructive urges. I want to cut my arms, my legs, my face, everything. I want to empty the kettle over myself. I want to smash my head and my limbs. Anything, anything to stop me feeling so shit.
Does the fact that I am mostly resisting these urges mean that I am in fact okay? Isthis what okay is supposed to feel like?
And the suicidal thoughts keep creeping in. Thoughts of ODing, running in front of a bus, jumping out of a window. They come so suddenly. What if I can't resist?
Yes don't bother going through the samaritans. I fyou can get to A&E they will get you a psychiatric referal. These are not normal feeling that you are having although lots of people do feel like this at times. Please get help.