I have had so much to contend with, and still do. In the past I have kept a positive attitude, and sometimes even enjoyed the stress and my management of all of life's challenges etc.
But all of a sudden, literally overnight, I can't stop crying and feel anxious. No, it can't have been overnight, because one week ago I made an appointment with a counsellor. But it's not for another 10 days, and anway, I won't feel better in one session.
How am I going to get through the next 10 days?
Just briefly,my ds is ten years old, and has cerebral palsy and epilepsy and learning difficulties. We have had to fight many battles with the LEA involving solicitors. We are battling the LEA right now.
We have had to move house to a bungalow which we had adapted. It took a year and much stress to have done because we project managed the whole thing.
My ds is facing major surgery so all the health professionals keep telling us. We are going to see an orthopaedic surgeon in 3 weeks time, and I am terrified. I instantly well up with tears with the mere thought of surgery, and the appointment.
I have a dd who is wonderful, but has just come out of hospital having been there (with me) for 4 nights. She is almost better now, but I feel it has put a strain on my relationship with my dh and my ds.
It is the hospital stay with my dd that has set off this awful tearfulness.
I feel trapped. I can't just get up and run away, my dc need me. I can't leave my dh, I couldn't do that to him.
I can't sleep, and I can't stop crying.
I've finally lost the plot.
Can I do anything to feel better?
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Mental health
Finally it is all too much. I am falling apart.
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twoisplenty · 10/07/2009 01:13
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