ds1 (4) and ds2(2) are at the stage where family are happy to take them for a while and I am starting to find time for myself and I've no idea what to do. Having the kids relatively close together and with difficult pregnancies then a variety of complications since ds2 was born everything that used to be for / about me has fallen away. I've had depression a number of times and am just coming out the other side of another dark period. How do I ease myself back into being a human being in my own right without overloading myself?
Is there anything you've really really always wanted to do but never had the guts/time/confidence to crack on with? Let's say.... I don't know, guitar lessons, drama group, knitting, GCSEs? Anything really that you can challenge yourself to, which will make you feel brave that you took the step and which will subsequently boost your self-esteem?
Cycling, skating, zorbing. would really like to do kite-surfing at the local beach. I need something physical I can totally lose myself in - i do way way way too much thinking which is what brings me down. Might be interested in something musical but felt that i'd left it too late. also struggle to jutify the expense of most things
with you on the expense thing, but I see it as more of an investment. Get on the internet, find a local club of whatever flavour you fancy, go along and job done. The first time will be the hardest, then you will have a whole new absorbing part of your life.