The slope is very slippery

[FabulousBakerGirl]

and it is scary how quick it becomes that way.

I need some self respect. Where do I get it from?

[TrillianAstra]

Only from inside yourself, or something else trite, probably. Sorry.

[Unicornvomit]

trillian is right

no-one can give it to you

you have to work on it

try some positive affirmations

[TrillianAstra]

You are FABulous, remember?

You've been so helpful on Trinity's threads recently.

Have you another wnoderful Waitrose order coming this week?

[littlelamb]

I think you need to get out into the sunshine. (I always say this to you ) I think you're finding your dc a bit challenging atm which won't help. Maybe think of somehting special you can all do together each evening after school to take some of the stress out. And, while you are feeling so low, stop reading the news for a bit. I've noticed today you've posted some really upsetting news stories That won't help ime, just make you feel worse.

[FabulousBakerGirl]

I hear you all

It is someone that is making me feel like this. So harder to deal with but have just emailed them to leave me alone so hopefully....

[Unicornvomit]

it;s not still that person from prevoiulsy is it??

[FabulousBakerGirl]

Yes, But I have told him to leave me alone and will be changing my number and email tomorrow. I am not going to let all my hard work go to waste. I have had a lovely day with messaging DH today and that is what I want to think about.

[Unicornvomit]

i can';t believe you are still having contact from him after everything

no wonder you ar still all over the plcae

why have you not cut him off weeks ago?

you need to push anything and anyone negative out of your life

[FabulousBakerGirl]

I had cut him off weeks ago,

Have discovered a thing on my phone to block him too.

[Unicornvomit]

so this is the first time he has contacted you in weeks?
even telling him to leave you alone is an in road for him, you cannot, cannot have any contact or exchange of words with him at all

[FabulousBakerGirl]

yep.

I am sure he will leave me alone now. I have made it very clear.

[Unicornvomit]

i have deja vu

you have to be strong

i am stunned you are still hearing from him and he has not got the message

[FabulousBakerGirl]

To be fair a while ago I did ask how he was and maybe that is what he is answering

I was doing so well and then when he texted I was so happy and now I am bloody cross at myself for replying.

[Unicornvomit]

after everything, i can;t believe you asked him how he was.

you are , without wishing to sound horrible, making it worse for yourslef

no contact means no contact

from you too !!

your DH is a one in a million

[FabulousBakerGirl]

you are not horrible, you are right.

I was worried about him.

stupid stipid girl

[FabulousBakerGirl]

DH just made me laugh

He IS one in a billion.

New phone number here I come

[FabulousBakerGirl]

And thank you for not being as harsh as I deserve.

[TrillianAstra]

Um, so the 'him' and the DH are separate people then. No idea of backstory. Hope you can figure it out.

[FabulousBakerGirl]

I will.

I fell off the wagon after a few weeks. I can stay on it forever. I have too. I want too. And I will.

[Unicornvomit]

okey doke , glad you took it in the spirit in which i meant.. stay strong, that is the key.

[FabulousBakerGirl]

the self esteem thing comes from thinking i don't deserve anything other than what others decide to give me. How sad was i to be to get a text off him and then feel like crap when he ignores my response.

idoit idiot idiot

[Unicornvomit]

think of how devasted your DH would be to read that .

thikn of how betrayed he would feel

[FabulousBakerGirl]

I know all that.

He knew something was up and was about him. he just teased me and said I needed to have something to occupy my time to stop me thinking.

arghg

[FabulousBakerGirl]

He being DH
Him being ex

[Unicornvomit]

he is a very good man, your DH