I have been expecting it. Not "waiting for it" exactly, but knew my odds were fairly high (have had it with both the others).
That familiar feeling is back - wanting to cry, being convinced I am a terrible person, everyone hates me and would be better off without me, lethargic - so much to get done, important stuff and I am sat here scrolling through threads with DS sat in front of Toy Story.
I'm frightened.
I don't want to do this again.
My friends are going through enough of their own crap without me whinging on them, and ideally they could use support but I just don't have it in me.
I can get through this without ADs, I have done it twice before, but that black bit before I start to beat it is just so black. I am already chucking medication into this child, I really don't want to add any more to the mix.
There is nothing any of you can do, but I need to get it out and said or it will build up even more.
Trying to kick myself out of it to get stuff done.
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Scared Antenatal Depression is kicking in again
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Flamesparrow · 24/04/2009 12:47
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