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Counselling on Monday

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SPARKLER1 Sat 16-Apr-05 08:49:12

After cancelling my first counselling appointment as I was ill with flu, my new appointment is nearly here. Monday afternoon. I am getting quite nervous now. I have actually had a pretty good feeling week this week so in some ways I feel like a bit of a fraud. It looks like the ADs have finally kicked in. GP increased my dose from 20mg to 40mg and when I first started the increased dose I went away for a mad, lots of alcohol drinking weekend and then came down with flu for 9 days. I never felt the benefits, if any, of them. Have had a more settled couple of weeks and I am feeling much better.
I have no idea what to expect at this counselling session.

blueteddy Sat 16-Apr-05 09:24:17

Don't worry about it SPARKLER.
When I started to feel a little better I thought I was a fraud for going to my counselling sessions & thought I would run out of things to say, but its amazing how much comes out of you once they start talking to you!
They really try to work out what makes you feel the way you do & you often talk about issues from your child hood.
I was VERY nervous about my first appointment, but they really put you at ease & by the time my sessions came to an end I was really worried about how I would manage without her!

SPARKLER1 Sat 16-Apr-05 15:51:19

Thanks BT.

SPARKLER1 Sun 17-Apr-05 11:48:08

One more day to go.

SPARKLER1 Sun 17-Apr-05 15:28:46

The butterflies are really starting to kick in now.

blueteddy Sun 17-Apr-05 17:01:33

Good luck SPARKLER
You will be absolutly fine. The thought is far scarier than the reality!
Let us know how you get on wont you?

SPARKLER1 Sun 17-Apr-05 20:52:23

will do.

blueteddy Sun 17-Apr-05 20:55:04

Are you still feeling very nervous SPARKLER?
It seems to have come round quite quickly!
I really do think it will do you the world of good.

SPARKLER1 Sun 17-Apr-05 20:56:44

I am - it's the unknown. Also I have had a fantastic feeling week this week so I keep thinking I might be wasting their time.

darlingbud Sun 17-Apr-05 20:58:23

I felt like that too but you really should continue to go. You are not wasting their time honestly.

Surfermum Sun 17-Apr-05 20:58:24

Good luck Sparkler. Don't be scared.

blueteddy Sun 17-Apr-05 21:01:43

No,no, no, don't think that!
You are not wasting their time at all.
I was feeling much better before my 1st session (probably because of the tablets) but as soon as I got in there & started talking, it was amazing what was coming out & I felt quite emotional again, after talking about the very causes of my depression.
By week 12 I felt like a fraud though, as I was running out of things to talk about!

SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 09:56:23

Today's the day. OMG

SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 10:55:07

Two hours to go <<<<<<<< breathes in deeply, and out, in and out >>>>>>>>>

compo Mon 18-Apr-05 10:55:30

good luck

SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 11:54:09

1 hour <<< pant >>>>. Blimey - didn't realise I had been on here this long.

blueteddy Mon 18-Apr-05 16:04:15

How did it go SPARKLER?

compo Mon 18-Apr-05 19:48:05


blueteddy Mon 18-Apr-05 19:52:41

Are you ok SPARKLER?

SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 21:02:22

Phew - that was hard. Managed to get through a lot of stuff today even though it was supposed to only be an introduction session. I have been having a really good week this week but when I came out from the counselling session I feel like I've hit rock bottom again. She said that I would probably feel a bit tearful as I have dug up a lot of the past. Have two more sessions booked up and will see how they go.

darlingbud Mon 18-Apr-05 21:03:49

Glad to hear you went Sparkler1. Keep at it - it will get better I promise. Try not to dwell now - leave it all in the room. Have you any "homework" to do for next time? Anything like CBT?

SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 21:06:15

She has just told me to write down anything I feel could be of benefit at the next session. So far I have found out that I need to find "myself" again. I'm always too busy worrying about everyone else. She has told me that I have to give myself at least ten minutes in the day where I sit and have a coffee, read a paper/magazine and tell the children that it's mummy's time and they must go and find something to entertain themselves.

SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 21:07:59

It was very difficult earlier as dm phoned me to see how I got on. It was difficult to open up and tell her too much as some of the problems go back years ago when parents split up etc. She keeps saying that I can go to her and chat - I know this but feel that I need to talk to someone from outside for now until I get to the roots of my problems. IYKWIM.

Dior Mon 18-Apr-05 21:15:00

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SPARKLER1 Mon 18-Apr-05 21:32:33

I know. I just can't believe how exhausted I felt when I came out from that 50 minute session. I'm still extremely tired. Must go to bed soon.

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