Firstly - regular but name changer - sorry, but necessary
I think i may be really losing it, I feel so sad and can't motivate myself to do anything. I'm looking after my DC's but feel like I'm only putting in the minimal effort.
I've been married for a long time and although I can say without a doubt that DH is a good father and an excellent partner, i'm not at all certain that I love him.
All of a sudden I feel as if I'm settling with life instead of living it. I'm also painfully aware that DH deserves better.
I've given up work to be a SAHM and feel as if I have no identity at all.
I basically feel so very very trapped by life. I feel as if I have no opportunities and that this is all there is (I know, even as I type this, that I have a lot to be grateful for but what I know in my head is stayiong put, it isn't making my heart feel any better iyswim).
I find myself escaping the monotony of life by reading and getting obsessed with the books. It is almost as if I'm living through the storylines - god, does any of this make any sense at all?
I feel as if I'm so far down this dark tunnel that my family would be better off without me. Today, I even thought about jumping under a bus (it was short lived but it scared me that I had that thought at all). I often think that if I just got in the car and drove and never came back that DH and the DC's could find someone else who would be better for them.
I've whittered on and I'm not sure if it's made sense but thank you if you've read this far.
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I think I may be losing the plot - PLEASE speak sense to me.
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Dazedandconfuddled · 20/09/2008 21:32
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