Could do with some support for a couple of months...

[TryinSoon]

I have had to come off my ADs (sooner than I would have done) because we have decided to try for another baby in a couple of months and I need them out of my system.

My genius of a doctor (I know he is trying to do what he thinks is best) says that I should stay off any ADs unless I actually HAVE antenatal depression again.

Problem is, I am already having anxiety attacks and feeling low again I hadn't realised how much the pills had helped.

I want to be clear of the meds before I conceive, so please don't ask me to go back and get pg safe ones until I am past the first trimester (yes, I know many people have had them, but I am still worried).

Just really need a place to come and offload for the next couple of months. Being honest about how I am feeling normally helps me a lot. I am starting to exercise too

Some of you know who I am, but you know my reasons for namechanging, so don't out me.

[moodlumthehoodlum]

being honest and exercising a lot will all really help. I'm at the other end of the AD process having just started them, but here is a great place to unload.

Make sure you are on all the natural supplements you can be so you know you are doing the best you can for yourself.

HTH.

[TryinSoon]

Ooh I will have a look at that. I'm not too sure how I would get on with the whole talking thing (or how my finances would get on ), but I will look into it

I'm going to Boots later to stock up on everything humanly possible

[TryinSoon]

I'm sooooooo tired (I am fairly sure it is tired rather than lethargy). I'm feeling fat and horrible because I have put on weight over the summer (I turn to nibbly things in the evenings when not on ADs).

I have a stack of work to get through and it just feels overwhelming

We got a cat a few weeks back though and she is now sat on my lap purring - I had forgotten how soothing that is

[MissChief]

think you should ask your GP to refer you for some free cognitive behavioural therapy/counselling to someone they recommend, should be free too!
could also look at NHS free websites such as www.livinglifetothefull.com
Moodgym

they're very good, free and comprehensive

This may be an excellent way for you to get the support you need.
Good luck!

[TryinSoon]

I have been thinking about cbt or counselling or something a lot lately (need to sort the whole depression thing properly iyswim), but is it a good idea starting something that will continue during pregnancy? - thinking I will have enough to deal with with the hormone caused depression, let alone kicking up everything that has made a mess of me the rest of the time

My AND is hormone based I am sure - it is different to "normal" depression, and disappears as soon as the baby is out.

[MissChief]

well, you should only do cbt which helps you deal with this rather than being something else to deal with. If you said this upfront to yr counsellor, i@m sure they'd plan around that and go at your pace. The CBT should help you (but I say that as someone who's still at the early stages myself, so I understand your concerns!)

[TryinSoon]

I have decided I can't face the cbt atm.

Right now though I just want to stay curled up in bed.

I am tired, feeling like a terrible mother, a terrible wife, and that I shouldn't even be considering another child.

I just want to cry.

[foxtrotmahoney]

Oh I'm so sorry you're feeling so down! Did the natural supplements help at all? How come CBT is so frightening? I'm not judging, just curious. For what it's worth it isn't a therapy that picks over your past and opens up old wounds- instead it tries to do the opposite- training yourself out of the negative trains of thoughts that overwhelm you at times.
I'm sure you're neither a terrible mother OR wife and that you'd be a great mum to another kid.

[TryinSoon]

A friend has started it recently and I know that the first couple of sessions brought to a head what her issues are (proper serious stuff rather than mine ), and where I know mine is all backdated to father cr*p, pregnancy really isn't the time for me to face them, even if it is only a cursory glance before getting started iyswim.

I am taking up cross stitch again to help with evening nibbles

[TryinSoon]

I'm not sure i can do this.

I want a baby, I know I want a baby. But right now I feel like the world would be better off without me in it but haven't the guts to do anything about it.

Is it really worth all this struggle to produce another child for me to f*ck up?

[forevercleaning]

I really dont think it would be wise to start trying for a baby if you feel your mental state is not on an even keel.

[TryinSoon]

but i can't GET on an even keel and have a baby. so that's it.

be nuts, or no more childrne.

[captainmummy]

Lol at cross-stitch!

tryinsoon - is it too hard? I don't have any exp of depression but I do know that you never regret having a child, just regret NOT having a child! How did the natural remedies go?

[forevercleaning]

sorry i thought you were coming off them but just earlier than you had thought, meaning that you weren't going to be on them permanently.

If that is the case, why rush to come off them now, can you not leave it until you feel ready, and then try for a baby?

[TryinSoon]

i'm on a multi woman pill thing (don't ask what is in it, i have no clue), but it doesn't seem to be having much of an effect

Right now - yes, it all seems too hard, but then getting up each day seems too hard.

I have highs and lows, but I haven't been this low in so long, and I just can't see the way clear.

[TryinSoon]

A whole load of reasons for it being now, if it isn't now, I don't think it will ever happen

[captainmummy]

There are foods that you can eat, like (I think) strawberries? that give a natural high. Or is it blueberries? Sorry not much help, but here to talk if you want.

[TryinSoon]

I love blueberries

[captainmummy]

I am trying to think - it's foods high in natural eostrogen. Like the Japanese eat - google it. I know a Japanese diet is the healthiest in the world (and the most expensive!)

[Dior]

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[TryinSoon]

f*cl I jave red buttoned it - please no-one respond as that name

[forevercleaning]

red buttoned? what does that mean?

[TryinSoon]

the exclamation mark - the missing post was not a good one