I cannot answer that question for you, but will say that whatever your circumstances, things will not always be the same, nothing stays the same,m life is always changing.
I am on a permenant journey of discovery. I am not the same person I was before I had children nor am i the same person I was after I had them. Maybe it is the same for you? Do you want to say a bit more about how you are feeling at the moment?
I know that feeling of boredom of feeling so crap - you wonder will it ever end? And there seems no end in sight... But one day you look back and realise that there has been some progrss, somethings have changed, and that it hasnt all been bad, even though it felt like it at the time.
I know my words are little comfort. I know the feeling when nothing anyone says acually makes a difference, nothing anyone can say can 'help'. But I can empathise with you.
I have to go for a while now, but have another virtual hug from me and do talk some more - or CAT me if you want.
I went through a deep depression many years ago, and am now a very happy person. But I'm not the 'me' I was before - the main difference being that I understand more of how hard life can be, and am much more grateful for every moment of happiness I get now. I don't take anything for granted any more.
When things get better for you, they will be so much better than they ever were before - I really believe that. The 'me' you will be is someone who has weathered the storm.
Sometimes getting through the day is an act of great bravery - I remember how hard it used to feel. Hang on in there and be proud of yourself for putting one foot in front of the other and breathing in and out when it feels like the hardest thing in the world.
So I guess I pick an issue and try and work out how to change how I cope with it? That will be hard. I have real food issues and can't deal with those never mind things to do with how I am with my kids.
Hi ImnotMamaG, we've talked before. Can I second everyone elses comments about finding a new you? I am far from the same person I was before my period of depression and anxiety. On the other side, I have come out quite different in many ways, some things I like and some things I like a bit less, but overall I'm happy with the current me. This WILL happen to you too.
Can I also suggest you press the GP about more counselling: sometimes it takes trying out a few to find a counsellor who gels with you. Also, I can second the recommendation for CBT - ask GP about this. I had this in my 4th phase of counselling and I think it is what gave me the long-term strategies to cope with and overcome my depression by myself. During CBT you gradually learn and practise mental strategies and disciplines which help to combat the wrong kind of attitudes to life's problems. I'm not saying it's easy or overnight, but it really can work. If you think your GP is not giving you the best advice, can you see another in the same practice?
PS loved your post about your daughter's pentagon the other day!