please bear with me on this cos i think its gona be long. can i also just say that although i have changed my name i am not a troll, i've been around long enough to know that cod 'wtrie lkie thsi' and that fruitshoots are evil!
about 6 years ago i was diagnosed with depression, i received treatment at the time and was prescribed cipramil (citalopram). I have had this depression under control for years, I have had my down times but i have always been able to ride them outknowing that i would eventually come out the other side.
But now something is different.
A few weeks ago when i was drying the dishes i was drying a sharp knife and i suddenly had this thought come out of the blue about what it would be like to cut myself my with the knife. I'm not saying i would do it but the feeling was so strong that it took me aback.
I put this to the back of my mind but feel like i am heading down so fast that i don't know what to do. I feel like i really have had enough and that i'm just so tired of everything. I love my children dearly and could never leave them but i think that if i didn't have the kids i would quite happily lie down somewhere and die. i'm quite calm about this, i don't feel hysterical or workedup i just feel like i really can't be bothered anymore with anything, like life is just to hard to continue with, like i could quite like to stop being alive. the only thing that stops me doing anything about this is the fact that i love my children more than anything
I've spoke to dh and he is brill but it doesn't stop me feeling like this.
He says i should go to the doctor but i'm scared that if i tell a doctor the truth then he will section me or they will think i am a bad mum.
I'm not really looking for any answers, its just sometimes it helps to get things down, and i don't know what to do, where to turn
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wheretoturn · 09/08/2008 15:50
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