OK its taken me a lot to actually write this, changed name obviously to avoid being recognised.
Basically I have 2 lovely children, 7 and 18 month old.
I also have a wonderful husband who works and takes care of us all.
I had pnd after the birth of my first child, and although felt low for a while after my 2nd was born didn't need to take any medication.
I seem to be have beem in a downward spiral for the last couple of months and i seem to constantly shout at my kids over the silliest little things, I have even and no its wrong and not proud of it, grabbed my eldest by the arm when he walked away from me when i was talking to him. I feel awful I have said sorry to him and he said it doesn't matter i am forgiven etc, but I can not forgive myself, I see my rage building over the slightest thing, I thought it was pmt at first but it seems to have constant, and snapping. I used to enjoy playing with them and feel now as though when I play with them its put on and false as i would really rather be on the oc or slumped on the sofa watching telly.
My doctor is ok, but I am sure she will just put me back on ad's, think it might be the best thing, but until I can get an appointment I can not help thinking I am horrible, I dread the summer holiday and cant shake the feeling I am an evil mum, its making me sad and crying a lot.
Dh thinks I need to go back on the ad's, just feel like everybody else is a great mum and my 2 kids are saddled with me.
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Need help advice, at my wits end and feel a failure and horrible mother who seems constantly angry.
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evilbadmum · 20/07/2008 20:29
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