Hello , hoping for a bit of advice or at least someone who may understand. Since childhood I've always felt odd. Like an outsider to everyone else, a square peg in a round hole if you like. I'm outgoing and chatty, friendly and helpful. Make friends easily on a superficial level but cannot sustain long term friendships and put barriers up when friends try to get too close and after a while of being friends their ways irritate me and I'll find fault and want to abruptly end the friendship as soon as I become intolerant. I tend to see things in black /white and to me there is never a grey area. I don't get banter, hate being laughed at or joked about (even if it's meant in a nice way). I have to have firm plans for the day and don't like spontaneity or surprises. Can't stand people disrupting my plans. Cannot abide being told what to do, will become bitterly non complaint against anyone trying to force me to do what they want me to do. I also hate being told 'no' and if I want to do something I'll become annoyed if anyone tries to prevent me. For example, if I want to go to Tesco tonight at 6, come hell or high water I'm going!! That type of thing Saying that, in some ways I'm very compliant and always abide by the law and have never been in any trouble at all.
Emotionally unstable at times, have been know to laugh at really inappropriate moments although there is absolutely no malice in me at all and I'd hate to offend. Just feel like I can't get anything right and I'm sick of feeling weird. Certain noises/phrases and words really get on my nerves too. I'm a complete animal lover and donate loads to charity so have a kind heart but do find life a struggle at times!!!!
I have some Aspergers traits but not all of them.
Anyone relate? Feel so alone and desolate!
Thank you
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Personality disorder? Autistic? At a loss!
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Noideawhatnametotype · 16/04/2021 16:30
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