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Mental health

Health Anxiety - Part 5

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AJ297 · 12/04/2021 14:48

Sorry if someone else was going to do this, I just didn't want to lose you all 😂

@MrsWhites
@argueifnecessary
@tmh88
@Skyliner001
@TheSilentStars
@hildagardecrowe
@BigGreen
@goolies
@iamsodonewith2020
@KAP232
@polkadotpixie

Sorry if I missed anyone!

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Skyliner001 · 12/04/2021 15:10

Hey hey! We're back for another thread! 👋🏻

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Skyliner001 · 12/04/2021 15:10

Ta for the tag!

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tmh88 · 12/04/2021 15:20

The link worked @AJ297 happy for thread 5!

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MrsWhites · 12/04/2021 15:42

👋 thanks for the tag @AJ297

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HildegardeCrowe · 12/04/2021 15:44

Hi @AJ297, thanks for starting new thread. I’ve had to come home from work as am in a pit of despair. Terrified I have blood cancer as have lots of bruising and knee joint pain (I know the latter is very common but bone pain is a symptom of myeloma, which my dad had). My work as a medical sec can be very triggering and had a couple of patients today who’ve been referred urgently for bruising. I can’t take any more and after having had a couple of weeks off sick already, my manager and I have now agreed that I should be off for a month at least. I’m beginning to think I should take early retirement (am 63) but am single so that would be a struggle financially. Also find my work fulfilling despite my HA and would feel lonely without it.

If it wasn’t for 21 year old DD, I honestly think I might top myself. The fear is excruciating and I have no appetite. The only thing that will make me feel any better is reassurance from a doctor but that will entail blood tests etc and I’m absolutely terrified. Sorry about the me me post, how is everyone else?

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MrsWhites · 12/04/2021 15:47

@tmh88 just picking up on the old thread...I could have listed the same things that make me anxious! Parking, phones but I especially nodded along with your comment about nursery pick ups, school mums make me so anxious! I convince myself that I’ve done something wrong, they don’t like me, they are talking about my children in a negative way, I just find it so cliquey and anxiety causing!

@argueifnecessary well done for making your calls! I made myself make mine to the optician early this morning to get it over and done with, don’t think I explained myself very well but I’ve got to go back for another appointment now anyway.

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Flossyvossy · 12/04/2021 15:58

Can I join please? This thread sounds like a bit of me. I'm currently sat here concerned that I've inhaled a braces elastic. It came off in the night a week ago, I woke up choking, then nothing. Spoken to a couple of doctors who treat me like an idiot but my lungs are hurting and I'm having to take painkillers to numb the sharp ache. Yay. Hope you ladies are all ok, health anxiety is so difficult :( (also sorry for jumping on the thread. Unsure if this is allowed or not, ignore me if so!)

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Iamsodonewith2020 · 12/04/2021 16:01

Hi everyone. I haven’t posted in a few days as I was feeling ok. I had an eye test and the extra scan to back of eyes and this made me feel so much better and because of the Amitryptline I was having good sleep too. Then this morning I had to go back to work and felt so drowsy because of having to get up super early and the medication that I started to freak out. As a result I have am once again convinced I most definitely have a brain tumour. The weird smell thing came back (GP thinks it’s because of COVID a couple of months ago) and combined with the almost drunk feeling I have had all day, and head pains on one side in a particular area of my skull and my heart rate regularly hitting 185 I am now in a complete spiral. Tinutis is back as well as me mixing up my words. GP says I don’t need a brain MRI as I had one 14 months ago for a vestibular condition. I am so anxious that I am going to collapse or have a seizure whilst at work. I don’t think it helps that I have moved teams at work today and am apprehensive about it as it’s basically like starting a new job as I know nothing and have to keep asking everyone about timetable and where things go etc.

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argueifnecessary · 12/04/2021 16:38

@Iamsodonewith2020

You have dysautonomia from covid. Honestly, you describe all the symptoms of it.
Sorry I am not a doctor but I have been having similar symptoms (as you know) of dysautonomia and covid/long covid causes it. Mine has definitely been there for years already but the whole condition is getting some rep because of long covid syndrome.

So some of my symptoms: Fast pulse when standing up, gets to 150 no trouble. Tremors, vibrations, weird sensations and numbness of face, tip of the nose and scalp. Weak right arm and leg, central apnoea. Random adrenaline dumps during the night which make me jolt up and think I'm dying. Occasional blurred vision, stomach problems, brain fog, head pressure
The autonomous nervous system controls all of that.
I feel better and having less of these but the brain fog was the scariest symptom. I am currently trilingual and started mixing up all the languages.

Have you had your jab yet? Because lots of people say their long covid was gone after they received their first dose.

@HildegardeCrowe
Maybe your job is too triggering. Maybe you could look into something else for a few years. Anything else at your GP surgery you could do?
I know they say not to avoid our triggers but sometimes I feel it is necessary.

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tmh88 · 12/04/2021 17:00

Just got off the phone to the doc! She’s seeing me in person next week to check over any worries I have and talk about anxiety! We didn’t really get to much on the phone but I explained I think my mums death has made me worse with my health!

@MrsWhites I’ve pretty much given up driving now! I tend to take the train only! Blush I get the exact same feelings at nursery pick up! Horrible isn’t it!

@HildegardeCrowe that must be awful! Please don’t ever feeling like ending your life however as hard as our brains are when we get them fixed we have so much to live for! Flowers what other things would you be interested in working in? x

@Flossyvossy sorry to hear your struggling! I’m sure you will be fine but I know how much easier said than done that is to feel like that!

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HildegardeCrowe · 12/04/2021 17:20

@tmh88, I think a face to face appointment is really what you need, your GP sounds most sympathetic. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum - how old were you when you lost her? Am so hoping I can get my brain fixed. As for other jobs, I only need something part-time for the next couple of years so was thinking maybe a GP receptionist rather than secretary. That way I’ll still be dealing with people which I love but not when they might be really ill - ie with cancer 😟

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Iamsodonewith2020 · 12/04/2021 17:21

argueifnecessary thank you so much for your informative post. You are the second person (other than GP) to mention long COVID. I was really poorly with it just after Christmas but not hospitalised and my sense of smell hasn’t returned still other than these weird smells. I haven’t been right since and my anxiety is off the scale because if it. I will look in to it. The numbness you also mention makes me feel so much better and I have really been freaking out about it. Mine is right side too.

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tmh88 · 12/04/2021 17:30

@HildegardeCrowe yes the GP was lovely! She passed away December just gone. GP receptionist sounds like a good idea, or maybe even admin/receptionist in a care home etc x

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Skyliner001 · 12/04/2021 18:02

@HildegardeCrowe I get terrible knee pain! And it sent me into an absolute rabbit hole when it started, but it was over 10 years ago now! I obsessed about how I thought the back of my knees are swollen, but they weren't. I think it always been like that.

My knee pain comes and goes now, I think that it might be psychic, but it is not always that time of the month.

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HildegardeCrowe · 12/04/2021 20:15

@tmh88, that must still feel so raw 💐. @Skyliner001 my knee pain comes and goes too but am unfortunately still in the rabbit hole phase. Oh how I wish I was more resilient!

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tmh88 · 12/04/2021 21:18

@HildegardeCrowe it does yes! I’m not crying everyday like I was but I do still find it hard daily!

Just got into bed and watching a programme about hoarding, wishing I did something like that rather than worry about health! Blush

Just out of interest do you all drink enough water? I know I don’t anymore and I think that doesn’t help sometimes.

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HildegardeCrowe · 12/04/2021 22:13

No am rubbish at drinking enough - have to force it down myself! Yes hoarding does seem relatively pleasant compared to HA! Of course you find it hard and the sadness will always be there, your lovely mum. I still think about my dad almost every day and it’s nearly 6 years since he died.

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StooriMelon · 12/04/2021 22:47

Hi everybody, checked my bookmark and I've been AWOL for three weeks! I've got a lot of reading to catch up on over the next day or so :)
I'm really good, I'm managing my HA much better recently. I'm finding I'm worrying more about others though so not totally cured - you lot are stuck with me yet!
Off to read through what I've missed and sending you all good vibes. Speak soon xx

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3boyshere · 13/04/2021 05:41

Thank you for the new thread x

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tmh88 · 13/04/2021 07:10

@HildegardeCrowe I’m the same! I never actually drink water alone either! So this morning I’ve had a coffee! Then I tend to have a bottle of dilute that lasts me the day Blush I’ve just bought one of them bottles with drink times down the side 😂

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argueifnecessary · 13/04/2021 07:57

@HildegardeCrowe

I think I have that PoTS thing for which the only thing that helps is downing water with salt so I have been having A LOT of water, maybe 3-4 l a day. I have actually always been a very thirsty person but in the last couple of years haven't had enough. Don't know why I kind of stopped suddenly, was feeling constantly a little bit thirsty though. Now I keep a water bottle next to my bed and down it before I get up which helps immensely against the lightheadedness
@tmh88
Bereavement is so so hard on our bodies because of the emotional strain. I recently read that autoimmune diseases can start after people suffer a loss or have PTSD from a dramatic event.
My health anxiety for really bad when I was 18 after an event and then for almost 10 years after I thought I had HIV.

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tmh88 · 13/04/2021 10:17

@argueifnecessary I’ll have a look into that! Thank you! Horrible when you firmly believe you have something!

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Skyliner001 · 13/04/2021 10:18

Managed to do my breast exam, after leaving it for a whole two weeks which was a massive achievement! Managed to do the exam and poke all the bits which Cause me stress, and not spiral. Feeling like I have made an achievement 😊💚

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tmh88 · 13/04/2021 13:19

@Skyliner001 that’s amazing! ❤️

Does anyone else find their anxiety makes them really tired? I could easily nap everyday if I could Blush

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tmh88 · 13/04/2021 13:21

@Skyliner001 do you think your meds are helping/working?x

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