I came out of a really bad relationship last year. And a year on I’m still trying to recover from it all. I feel like because I’m not in that situation anymore, I’m having a come down from it where I’m reflecting on EVERYTHING. I go from angry, to sad, I feel nervous all the time and then I feel completely empty.
And also strangely enough, I miss the good times we had too. I think back to 10 years ago and get a sinking feeling. Then I think about all the bad things I went through and I also get a sinking feeling. It’s just shit.
Don’t get me wrong I have good days and I’m hopeful for the future, but covid hasn’t helped me with moving forward at all. I just feel.... lost.
Also, I had an abortion 3 years ago around this time of year. It’s not at the front of my mind anymore, but it’s always there if you get me. Like a dark cloud lingering. This time of year always gets to me.
I don’t even know why I’m posting. Just to talk really.
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My past still affects me
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funinthesun19 · 01/11/2020 19:58
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