Hi all,
Just hoping to pick other peoples brains since mine doesn't seem to be working. I work in mental health. I also suffer from recurrent depression. I had a severe episode last year that landed me in hospital. I recovered but only partially and started with a private therapist instead of continuing withmy 18month + wait to get therapy via NHS.
I've been doing okayish but in the past couple of months have noticed my mood dipping. I'm managing okay I think.I'm still playing with the kids and keeping them clean and fed. I'm seeing patients and managing to stay my normal empatheticans cheerful self with the patients. Between the appointments I can't get anything done. I just sit by my desk and stare at my laptop. I can't get tasks started and I feel like I have barely got the energy to get up or even move my hand. I feel there is no point in life and that thereiis nothing to look forward to even beyond covid. I see my life as a series of failures and bad choices.I can see that nothing will ever change and I'm destined to live in an unhappy marriage with no meaningful friendships, having a career where I'm not actually helping anyone due to a poorly working and underfunded system. My kids will probably develop mental health problems, eldest one is already showing signs of it. It just all looks pretty grey.
I've not called my gp. She'd refer me back to cmht and I know there are a lot of people out there needing their help a lot more than me. I don't want to take up that valuable place on their caseload. What I can't decide is though when to take time off work. I'm managing to see patients and manage not to cry at work. However I don't think I can see the situation clearly myself.
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When would you go off work with depression
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myotherface · 07/10/2020 12:08
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