I have struggled on and off with mental health for years, mainly untreated (my choice). I am wondering if I possibly have bipolar.
One day I can be really happy, loving life and everything around me, a few days later I can feel lonely useless and almost suicidal. I would say I have more good days than bad days so am mostly happy. I struggle to relax, am on the go all the time, can struggle to sit still, can’t sit through a film and struggle to stay focused when someone’s talking to me. I suffer with anxiety but mainly when I’m having a really bad day. I can’t seem to be happy in a relationship, get bored easily and overthink things too much so find it easier being single.
When I’m starting to feel down I often spend money on things I don’t really need and then regret it the next day.
At the moment I’m on a bit of a downer, feeling sorry for myself, feeling lonely and trapped like there’s nothing to look forward too. I am on my period which does not help as my hormones are all over the place. I’m questioning everything, my life choices, where I go from here whilst feeling useless and worthless. I don’t want to be medicated, I know in a few days I will feel great again and all will be ok but then I get anxious about the next time I feel low.
Most of my lows are caused by relationships, people letting me down or fear of commitment so then I find myself pulling away from everyone including family.
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Bipolar? Something else?
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Lovemusic33 · 29/08/2020 21:26
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