Ocd success stories?

[marmite92]

Hi everyone sorry this is a bit long but I'd appreciate help

I have had ocd for years now, I had a course of cbt 2 years ago which helped at the time but it's returned with a vengeance recently. I am going to see a psychologist next week but I just feel I'll never be better. On the outside I function well have a professional job very success, but inside I cannot stop having obsessive thoughts and compulsively google them until I replace whatever it is with the next thought.

I used to worry obsessively about health, that got replaced with relationships, recently it's been religion and now it's back on health. I have a lot of stress in my life so I know that's what I react to - I'm in my 20s and got married last year because my mum was diagnosed with a terminal illness so we married quickly but it was a mistake and we both realised and split up, it was sad but for the best for us both. Since then I've obsessed about going to hell, I've had terrible anxious thoughts about people talking about me and now I've just felt a lump in my neck and I'm worried :( it's never ending and I just don't know what to do because each worry this feels like the 'real one' if that makes sense, like this is actually worth googling so I obsess over it

My friend works in psychology and she's very against antidepressants and i don't know if they actually work for ocd, so the only option is cbt which worked for a bit but then it came back. Has anyone ever felt like they've had a break from it?