Why am I so crap at life?

[AlwaysMessingUp]

I have name changed for this as some of the details are quite outing, but am a long term poster and reader.

Please be gentle with me. I suffer from quite bad anxiety , but I have been working on that recently and taking medication, and things have felt a bit more manageable. One of the strategies I have been working on is bringing up issues that upset or hurt me in my marriage and in friendships, as and when they happen and not letting them fester. There haven't been many issues recently. This approach has helped me improve various relationships and it means I don't retreat into stroppy/resentful/petulant silence, which I know I can be prone to. However, I do find these conversations very, very hard.

I needed to speak to a friend about something last night. She is a friend, but I also know her in a work capacity as I am one of her regular clients (think personal trainer type stuff but not actually a PT). I pay the regular going rate and have been a client for years. I respect her a great deal, and she has always been very honest and direct with me, sometimes painfully so. I have always thought she was a kind person.

Anyway, I brought up the issue face to face, tried to be as positive and constructive as possible. It wasn't a personal issue as such, more feedback as a client. She became really, really angry and aggressive, told me I had made her feel like shit, was sarcastic and shouty. The whole thing has really thrown me. I couldn't sleep last night, have been struggling to focus all day at work.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I keep getting life wrong no matter how hard I try. I haven't contacted her since the exchange last night as I figured she would want time and space.

Now I feel like I have lost a friend and can't return to an activity I previously enjoyed and really helped with my mental health. It just feels horrible.

I feel so hopeless right now. I keep getting it wrong no matter how hard I try.