For various reasons I developed insomnia in the last year.
A few self help books later and I'm far far better. During the working week I sleep normally. However on Friday and Saturday nights (or any night of holiday), I either struggle to fall asleep even if I go to bed at my usual time or can't fall back asleep if I wake up early like I usually do.
I realise this is because the weekends mean so much to me - I want to enjoy them, to have a good time because my working week is dull and stressful. I hate my job and my commute and the pointlessness of it. So come Friday, I am desperate to have a good weekend and then my brain says I must sleep because if I don't, my weekend is ruined because I'll feel shit.
Ergo, do I sleep? No because I've put so much pressure on myself to sleep, and that sleep becomes elusive and I ruin the weekend. Then it's Monday again.
Take last Friday night. I couldn't sleep until 1am.
My boyfriend then gets up and makes noise at 5am then goes back to bed. I however am now awake and can't sleep again. So 5 hours sleep and I feel terrible and my Saturday was a total waste because I was so anxious and depressed about not being able to go back to sleep.
I now take sleeping pills once a week on a Friday to try and ensure Saturday is better but it doesn't work.
I'm in a viscous cycle! Can anyone help?
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I can't sleep when I have something to look forward to
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MattieB19 · 19/04/2019 13:03
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