Hello will try to keep this brief. Background- MH my whole life. Depression, anxiety and self harm to the point of suicidal, better now but still have issues, at the moment compulsive picking at top of the list. Pick my scalp and pull my hair until i have bald patches and raw weeping skin. Cant sleep as pick and bite my tongue and cheek until they are raw. Its got so bad im losing my sense of taste. My brother and sister have been diagnosed with BPD due to shared childhood trauma. I dont think i fit the bill as one of the main symptoms is fear of abandonment and i am never more happy than when im alone, however i can have a explosive temper, i self harm and have engaged in risky behaviour in the past. Ive had councilling and anti depressants in the past and they havent helped. Would some kind of diagnosis ( bpd of not) help me get better? Im 46 now and am exhausted by feeling this way.So as not to drip feed other trauma has included 20years with EA husband, severe PND and health issues with no family suport at all, son highly functioning ASD who i raised alone with no support, i am support system still for mother , she uses me as her punchbag. Husband with bipolar( am sole carer) have long term chronic health condition and constant pain.
Is how i feel just a reaction to my life and is there anything that would help?Anyone been through similar and found a diagnosis did/did not help?
Sorry for length thanks for reading
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redannie118 · 22/01/2019 14:00
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