just accepted that I'm not coping

[bluemum30]

hi. i know im not the first and wont be the last.... so here goes.. my husband has deep depression and anxiety. and my eldest (7) is currenty in the process of a adhd diagnoses.
I feel stuck at the moment I feel all I do is shout at my boys everything they do seems to annoy me. my eldest can be difficult at times and takes his anger out on his brother (5) . I used to work in a restaurant evenings and weekends but gave it up because my husband couldnt cope with my eldest melt downs. I mean he managed but by the time I got home I would be calming them both down.. my husband struggled with being on his own aswell. he is on medication and I feel like I am his support I know as a wife that's what I'm ment to do but all his issues plus my boys and changing jobs... I now work daytime while boys at school. I feel like I've lost me. I don't get me time anymore. I feel like a robot constantly cleaning up after every one else... if I'm not angry I'm crying I'm panicking or just staring into space.... I k ow I should go to the doctors but the first set of tablets my husband had made him sleepy and away with fairies... I can't have that I have a family to look after and a husband who needs me...
thank you for reading and letting me rant x

[user764329056]

Hi there, you have a lot to deal with and sound like a very strong woman. There are so many different types of anti-depressants and there will be one that will suit you and help you, I would encourage you to go to the GP and talk through the options, that will make you feel that you have some control over the situation and there honestly will be something to help you, please don’t catty on struggling alone, good luck x