I have a lot on my plate - it’s been this way for years...
I’m resilient but I am increasingly feeling like I may have just about had enough.
For the first time in my life I am anxious, suffering from panic, insomnia and worry. I feel like I am about to crash and there will be no going back.
It is unlikely I can solve all of even some of the issues that are causing me to feel like this in the short term - my job- which I don’t like. My husband and his inability to be responsible for anything. The rest has just been a drip, drip over the years of responsibility, pressure, financial worries. My dad’s cancer, and elderly parents.
I can’t cope any more. Sometimes i want to withdraw from life and not get out of bed, but I do for my two children.
How do I deal with feeling like this? Avoiding the mental breakdown? The burden?
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How to avoid a break down or burnout?
MrsWhirly · 18/06/2018 16:05
Sorry you feel like that, it isn't nice - I've been through it myself! I spent a long time denying anything was wrong, but eventually I went to the GP. He was brilliant at helping me through my choices and just generally listening. I decided to take medication and it really helped me with the low, crushing feelings of having to actually be alive and function, plus I had counselling which helped more than I thought. And as difficult as it is, having an honest conversation with my partner was necessary, as he thought I was being dramatic at first. It took a good few convos before we were in a place in which I could talk freely and admit to needing help, as I'm terribly stubborn and don't like to be reliant on others. I had lost my mother to a five year long battle with cancer, my father was being horrid towards my siblings still at home and we also had terrible debt that seemed to get bigger every day! I just wanted to say you aren't alone feeling like that and it really is tough, but possible to pull through 
20mgs of citalopram; I'm coming off of it now due to pregnancy but been on for a year and a half, roughly.
I was fortunate that it worked well for me but sometimes you need a bit of trial and error.
I had online counselling which I preferred too - I get what you mean about being able to be open with someone right in front of you! It's a free service through the NHS, it may be worth a search? I know there are other organisations that also provide a similar service.
I totally get what you mean about being the strong one - it's ok when you feel up to it, but when you need support but feel as though you have no one, its like falling into a bottomless pit 
I really hope you get some support! It can feel more scary saying you need it, but honestly it's a relief when you do, even if it is just your Dr at first.
You have to see your GP OP. The illness you almost certainly already have ruins lives, it takes years to recover from and it can be deadly (depression and/or stress related heart disease).
Don't minimize it. Don't be scared of medication. You can't fix this alone and you don't have to try. 
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