I don’t think I can do this any longer

[SweetMisery]

I just don’t think I want to exist anymore. It’s such a strong feeling of needing to just not be here anymore.

Has anyone had this and survived it?

[distantstars]

Didn't want to read and run.

You are needed, you are cared for, there are people who will miss you!!!!

You need to see a GP soon! X

[rainbowfudgee]

Can you tell us more about how you feel and why?
Keep talking OP

[SweetMisery]

I feel like my insides are full of rocks and I’m being crushed

[distantstars]

Is there anyone you can speak to in RL?

[SweetMisery]

I think I would just panic them. My husband knows I haven’t been feeling good lately but I don’t think he knows how bad it is

[SophieLMumsnet]

Hello SweetMisery

We are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.

[SweetMisery]

It’s ok, sorry, you can delete it. I didn’t really think it through

[Mabelface]

Yes, I have. After my marriage broke up, I just wanted to not have to wake up again. I was put on antidepressants and they really, really helped me. I've been well for 2 years now, no reoccurrances.

[iwishicouldbelikedavidwatts]

yes, i have, repeatedly. i'm still here and still working on it, one step at a time. talk to us, tell us what's going on for you.

[RandomMess]

I have too, and for a few years. It did get better I enjoy life again.

Hang on in there and talk to someone in real life ASAP

[cpjoli]

Yep. Sat here debating whether I'm worth phoning the Samaritans or just not bother. It's so fucking hard.

[KioraAdora]

For everyone, keep going. Tomorrow will be better.

[buckeejit]

You are worth it. Please speak to someone x

[mumontherunnn]

Please please please call the Samaritans.

You are loved, are are adored and you are wanted. Keep talking OP. I have been there, talking is what will get you through

[123fushia]

Hang on in there and get through tonight. Make an appt to see your GP tomorrow. You need to get in the loop and will find lots of opportunities to seek support from people who care. You will feel better, it may take a while, but you will get through.
Sending you my love and care. X

[SweetMisery]

I just feel a sense of doom. I’m just flopping from one day to the next. I keep going to work, come home, cook, go to bed, wake up, repeat, and then the last few days I just have been late for work because I don’t know how to make myself go

[Goldmonday]

Yes I have had this, and I did survive it.

You will get though this you just have to keep going xx

[Kneehighinshit]

Sense of Doom will ease. Lots and lots of people can relate to exactly how you're feeling. You are not alone.

Try to think about the next 20 minutes ahead of you first and then, when you've got through that chunk of time, get through the next 20 minutes. One step at a time.... Do you have a favourite sitcom to fill your first 20 minutes, or maybe paint nails, read a chapter of a book? Even making a cup of tea and drinking it would be enough.

We're all here right behind you

[Kneehighinshit]

Let me say it again...

You are not alone and we are all right behind you!

[mumontherunnn]

What knee high said - one step at a time. We are all here for you.

[Wolfiefan]

You aren't alone.
This too can pass.
You need to seek RL help. Seen a GP? Reached out to crisis team?

[erinaceus]

I've felt like this, many times.

I find the Samaritans helpful, although not everybody does.

[colouringinagain]

sweetmisery I'm where you are. Samaritans are good. Or just go to bed and sleep. If I can, you can.

[SweetMisery]

I saw my GP at the start of the year but I didn’t keep up with the medication prescribed because it wasn’t making me feel worse in a way, so it’s no ones fault but my own that I am in this situation

[colouringinagain]

It's no-ones fault. Full stop. It is what it is. Illness