I'm sinking...

[namechangedbutneedadvice]

I'm currently in my bedroom. My DD (6) is downstairs refusing to go to bed. This wednesday she flatly refused to go to school so I let her have the day off.

I'm tired. I'm a single mum with two DDs 9 and 6. My divorce has been final for a month. I work four across 5 days a week. I can't cope with normal everyday things. I spent most of today staring at my computer screen pretending to work, trying not to cry. My brain just couldn't function today... stared for hours at the same word document.

I am so overwhelmed with life at the moment. So scatty and forgetful... like a goldfish moment to moment I forget and move to the next thing. Glued to my phone.

I just can't do it - being a single working mother. My youngest needs more from me that I can't give her. I'm just so tired.

[mulberrybag]

Bless you.
Turn your phone off and get into bed with your little one. Try to rest, tomorrow is another day and you will manage. One foot in front of the other love. Big hug

[namechangedbutneedadvice]

Thanks. I tried that... she got into my bed for a while. Saw that I was crying, started to cry herself, we had a cuddle then she asked to get into her own bed. I can hear her now sucking her thumb loudly as she does when she's drifitng off. Worse somehow. I miss them terribly when I'm not with them. But when I am my mind goes elsewhere.

[namechangedbutneedadvice]

Thanks. I tried that... she got into my bed for a while. Saw that I was crying, started to cry herself, we had a cuddle then she asked to get into her own bed. I can hear her now sucking her thumb loudly as she does when she's drifitng off. Worse somehow. I miss them terribly when I'm not with them. But when I am my mind goes elsewhere.

[mulberrybag]

I've been where you are and I know it feels like there's no light at the end of the tunnel and no joy in anything, but you will get there I promise. Do you have any support around you ? Try not to beat yourself up, you're doing the best you can

[Lollypop701]

You are doing fine considering the circumstances... you are on your own, with kids, grieving the end of a relationship (whatever the circumstances) . Go easy on yourself. If you have friends/family get them involved. And go to gp and get some short term meds till you can see a talk therapist.... big hugs huni. You CAN do it x

[bionicnemonic]

Look after you. Sleep. Drink plenty of water. Eat lots of green leafy things (no trees though!). When you get time take the little ones out and run around. Lay on the grass and smell the earth. Feel good knowing you love them and they love you

[namechangedbutneedadvice]

Thanks everyone. Feel better after a deep sleep. We were a bit chirpier this morning. After breakfast their dad has come to pick them up. Feel like a weight's been lifted (don't mean that horribly). Have today and tomorrow on my own to tidy all the mess and sort some life admin... generally get myself feeling better for when they're back. Thanks again I felt at sea last night.

[WingsofNylon]

Great that you feel a bit lighter today. Do plough through the 'must do' stuff but also find a couple of 'just for me' stuff too. I'll admit, I used to hate it when people have me that advice but when I started to follow it, I did feel better.

[mulberrybag]

I used to (and still do) find writing down a plan of my spare time and committing to it a real help. I.e two hours housework, followed by twenty mins messing about on Facebook, then another while for jobs but not so much that it felt overwhelming, then at least an hour spent on myself. Could you stay with a friend tonight and share a bottle of wine or treat yourself to a coffee out and a book ? Little things like that feel like such a big treat to me and give my brain more time to recover than fucking about on social media making me feel crap about myself. Keep on keeping on and drop me a pm of you need a motivation buddy or a shoulder. I had nobody after moving across the country and know how lonely it can feel struggling like this

[namechangedbutneedadvice]

Thanks so much... your support has really helped me yesterday and today. Thanks mulberrybag for the offer to PM you - I may just do that xx