Spending my days in bed because it is the only place I feel safe. Get maybe 4-6 hrs sleep per 24 (for lots of reasons not just the anxiety but that doesn't help). Barely eating/drinking. Feel like a waste of air. Letting everyone down, don't want to talk to anyone. But when I do get to talk to people (strangers) I waffle on cos I actually then enjoy it. SO lonely. Single mum but barely see my child due to they're hardly home etc (adult child living at home). Mainly due to work hours but also cos (and I don't blame them) it's no fun spending time with me at the moment. I have a cpn but cos of limited time available for patients not very often.
I have meds prescribed but I'm scared to take them as had a horrendous time with side effects (have tried loads of others too).
I'm sick of feeling like this but can't see a way out. Just want to stay in bed and stay hidden from the world not deal with anything.
Not taking care of myself at all. I'm disgusting. I smell and I look a mess and I'm so ashamed.
Haven't left house in almost 5 months. Even answering the door makes me anxious hell even my text notifications do.
Not sure why I'm posting this. To confess? To hear from others who've had the same? Well over 10 years of TRYING to "get better" and honestly I don't think I ever will be. I've had times where it's been better than this - but SO far from normal. I can't even remember how normal feels.
Even the better points haven't lasted more than a few months at most. What's the point? It's SO hard getting there and maintaining that. Not just mentally but physically.
I'm SO tired.
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OCDpanic · 02/05/2018 10:07
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