Stressed, anxious and feel my mood dipping

[Nctothisfornow]

Everything feels like it is spiralling again.
My kids have a social worker -came about from a major dip in my mood, but stuck due to me asking for help as my oldest ds refuses to go to school.
Her recent visit has triggered me it seems.

Everyone who is involved with me knows that i can not cope with random visits. I need to be informed. She has just turned up on two occasions now and it has fucked me up.
It feels like she is just judging me without even trying to understand.

She made comments on how my kids were loud. Age 7 and 9 - yes they are! So what?
She commented on my 'wild' dogs. 2 of which are pups still. I have 3 dogs. I dont have visitors due to it escalating my anxiety which brings about depression. So the dogs are not used to it either. Obviously they are going to get excited.

So she comes in my home to two children being loud and me trying to grab 3 dogs so she can enter my living room. Had i of been prepared for her visit i could have placed the dogs in their cages and kitchen!!!

She then comments about my older son and how is attendance is not good enough. Something which we all know! Yet failed to see the positives - from him not attending at all, i am now getting him in at least 3 days per week.
I was feeling the positives of that until she knocked me back down.

Im getting really bad vibes about her and its knocking me to shit. I feel supported by everyone else - both schools, MH services and i have felt supported by previous social workers but this one feels like she is so inexperienced she could potentially fuck everything up, unintentionally. That is the vibe i get. I think my case is too complex for a new social worker to deal with.

She even claimed the school had been trying to contact me but couldnt. She looked baffled when i told her they had contacted me and a meeting had been arranged (it didnt include her).
She said she had to give them my number!? A number which they have had and used frequently for the past 2 years. Point proven with the already arranged meeting!
I dont trust her

[Nctothisfornow]

She also claimed she had been trying to contact me herself but it kept going to the engaged tone. My phone does not have an engaged tone. It either goes to voicemail (if off), or it bleeps in my ear to tell me someone else is calling if i am already on the phone. So it always rings if switched on!
School got through no problem.
They all also know that sometimes i cant answer private number calls, so leave a voicemail and i will call back.
The school head teacher and fecking receptionist know this about me!

She obviously madr this shit up so thst she could just randomly turn up at my door unannounced for what reason i do not know!
I am an open book. I am a strong believer in honesty being the way forward to receive the correct help needed. I have nothing to hide and no reason to lie.
She knows i cant handle people just turning up without it making me ill, yet she has done it. Twice now. For what?
Is she deliberately trying to make me unwell?

Its worked.