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Had enough.

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mrsbounceisflat Thu 14-Dec-17 21:02:48

I've had mental health problems for a number of years. Until recently spent the past couple of years mainly in bed. The past few months I have been doing more with a lot of support but I just don't feel I can carry it on. It's all to much, the only thing that keeps me going is my son.
I have also run out of my anti anxiety medicine which is probably not helping hope to be able to pick up on Saturday, but can't face going out to get them on my own.
I've sh'ed today but it's not enough I just can't cope.

CheckpointCharlie2 Fri 15-Dec-17 18:05:35

How are you feeling today mrsbounce

mrsbounceisflat Fri 15-Dec-17 19:17:17

Still feel crap,being self destructive rather than using positive coping skills. I spoke to my OT and she's tried to break things down for me so life doesn't seem so overwhelming, but it's not really worked.
The house is a tip, we need to get the Christmas tree up and to top it all off I have my PIP assessment next week.

CheckpointCharlie2 Fri 15-Dec-17 19:52:45

Can you tackle one small thing at a time? Sounds like you've done well so far in getting out of the last couple of years - can anyone get your medicine tomorrow for you?

mrsbounceisflat Fri 15-Dec-17 20:51:33

I'm trying to keep it one small thing at a time, have been out to do the food shop tonight as it's quieter at night and gives us more time to do stuff tomorrow. I'm alright going out with my husband so as long as the drs have got the prescription to the chemist, I'll be alright if not the chemist will give them me as an emergency.
Thanks it really helps to know someone is listening.

CheckpointCharlie2 Fri 15-Dec-17 21:28:44

Ahh well done and your DH sounds like mine, he is supportive of me at the moment while I'm having a wobble.
Good you can get your pills tomorrow either way, that must be a bit if a relief. I've just started on citalopram and it's making me feel v sick!

mrsbounceisflat Fri 15-Dec-17 21:33:09

Early days on new meds are always tough, but hopefully you will find that they'll help.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sat 16-Dec-17 08:27:24

Have you had any support from the NHS, therapy or similar? I'm starting on Thursday with telephone appointments. You probably have but could be worth trying again, or a different sort?

mrsbounceisflat Sat 16-Dec-17 11:12:58

Hi again, I've got my meds so hopefully they'll help a bit.
I'm very lucky for support in the area I live, I've had a CPN for years but am now only seeing her monthly because I have an OT and support worker. I've started going to a weekly support group which has been a challenge to say the least as I'm not very good with people.
Today I aim to get the Christmas tree up and then I'll go back to bed.
It's good you're getting some support, make the most of it.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sat 16-Dec-17 19:32:11

Oh well done for getting them. Do you think any of your support people could up the time you get with them?

And that's incredibly brave to go to a support group, I'm really outgoing and confident and I don't think I could manage that!
Really hope your needs kick in and take the edge off.

mrsbounceisflat Sat 16-Dec-17 22:26:06

years so she's knows me inside out.

mrsbounceisflat Sat 16-Dec-17 22:28:27

That didn't work I lost my whole post, basically i said I can't really get more support unless they think the crisis team is necessary. I think with new workers it's taking time to build up trust with them.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sun 17-Dec-17 06:57:10

Do you feel better for a bit after seeing them?

mrsbounceisflat Sun 17-Dec-17 09:22:48

Yes, but I don't feel I'm being completely honest with them. Disappointed to have woken up today, it means I have to deal with another day.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sun 17-Dec-17 10:33:13

Oh sad that must be horrible, I'm so sorry you feel so bad. Does your medicine treat depression as well? Could you try a new one to see if it can tackle both anxiety and depression?

Could you tell them all this when you next see one of them, maybe their support could get a bit more regular if it helps?

mrsbounceisflat Sun 17-Dec-17 18:57:09

I'm on anti depressants, an anti psychotic, and something for an anxiety. I go through waves of feeling like this and just try and ride the storm. I guess that is what I have to do this time.
I have my group tomorrow which is run by the OT and support worker so I will try and talk to them.
Apart from my husband and son, nobody would realise I was struggling as I just plaster on a smile. My husband has been great this weekend and has done some of the tidying in the lounge, he's off tomorrow so he said he will do some more.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sun 17-Dec-17 21:03:59

Good you gave your group, try to tell them if you can, I know it's not easy though. Your DH sounds lovely.
I really hope this fucks off very soon and you feel a bit better over the next couple of days, it's a really horrible feeling I know. I had pnd and then ante natal depression and wouldn't want to go back to those times.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sun 17-Dec-17 21:07:06

Although I do feel it creeping back from time to time hence the tablets now, plus a lovely new wave of anxiety! Hoping a break from work will ease it a bit.

mrsbounceisflat Sun 17-Dec-17 22:08:31

Anxiety is shit, I've just been reading your other post I started on citalopram when I hadPND a long time ago and found it very helpful, although can't remember what side effects I had. Just try and hang on in there, until they kick in properly.

CheckpointCharlie2 Sun 17-Dec-17 22:46:32

I think the sickness is going slightly now so it will be easier to stick with them! Hoping they start to help soonish although it's only been a week! I'm impatient.

CheckpointCharlie2 Mon 18-Dec-17 20:28:35

How was your meeting today?

mrsbounceisflat Mon 18-Dec-17 20:42:25

I went, but I didn't talk to anyone. I'm at present trying to pluck up courage to phone the Samaritans, the last tine I called them I didn't find them overly helpful. Our local mental health line has just been discontinued.
I'm alright when I can SH but can't really do that when my son is home and he breaks up from school tomorrow. I have no idea how I'll survive the holidays. I have an appointment with my CPN on Wednesday and also my PIP assessment.
I only carry on for my son.

CheckpointCharlie2 Mon 18-Dec-17 21:32:32

Oh mrsb I feel for you so much. It's not long till weds, do you think you can tell your CPN how bad it is for you and ask them to help you urgently?
I just looked at and there is a number you can ring tomorrow and two that are open till 11 and midnight, one called SANEline and one called CALM maybe they might have someone more understanding at the end of the phone?

CheckpointCharlie2 Mon 18-Dec-17 21:36:16

here is the page

CheckpointCharlie2 Mon 18-Dec-17 21:38:32

Just read again, CALM is for men. But maybe one of the others might be ok?

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