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SoSadforBabyP Sat 11-Nov-17 23:18:21

In 2014 my DS was 2 and I was reminded of the Baby P tragedy at one point. At the time I became obsessed for months over him and his case, I cried for him, couldn’t eat or sleep, read and watched everything online about him and the case. I was a wreck. I think it was made worse as my DS (pfb) was then a similar age to Peter and I couldn’t imagine putting a baby through what he went through. I confided in my DH at the time and he tried to get me to stop. It took a while but eventually I managed to make myself stop reading things and for the last few years I have thought about Peter every now and then and I have to force the thoughts down so the obsession doesn’t return.

However, the recent case of Elsie Scully-Hicks being killed by her adoptive father really affected me (probably as I now have a 11 month old DD, so again roughly the same age as Elsie), I found myself becoming obsessed with the case and thinking about her all the time and this has led to a spiral and I am now thinking about Peter all the time. I have spent hours today reading about his case and his injuries again, I gave myself a panic attack readying what the poor baby went through and looking at his photos online. I haven’t told my DH, he’d be disappointed in me I think. I don’t know how to stop this. I’m scared for my mental health. If I don’t think about him I feel guilty that he has been forgotten. If I smile or laugh I feel guilty for him. I know this is ridiculous.

Please has anyone got any words of advice? I’m desperate

NolongerAnxiousCarer Thu 16-Nov-17 11:05:43

You need to speak to your GP, they can help. Maybe something like cbt would help with your thought patterns.

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