I think I know the answer already, the question is more "who". First time here so be gentle.
Firstly, I have no real reason to worry about anything. I have 3 beautiful children, loving husband, decent job, good health - the works. But I struggle with fairly irrational fears, which lead to what I think are panic attacks. I've always felt like this, but recently it's starting to impact on the way I am with my children.
At the moment I'm worried about Artificial Intelligence and digital development generally. It feels as though technology is moving too fast and nobody's asking if we want it or keeping it in check. DH works in digital advertising, and the speed of development there is frankly terrifying. In the evenings particularly I struggle to give the children my full attention because I can't stop worrying - about the future of technology, what Trump is doing, what's happening in Korea etc etc etc. I think it's the helplessness that really bothers me, that things are happening in the world - to me and my family - that I cannot control. I worry about nuclear Armageddon, alien invasion, etc to the point where I've recently bought a paper road map of the uk, just incase we need to escape. I don't want to be this person.
For many years I had an irrational fear of death . I know death is something that many people fear but I got a bit obsessed with what actually happens, how people die, what happens to the body and so on. I still have very odd thoughts, for example if I see a screwdriver I automatically think of all the horrible accidents it might cause.
I remember being a teenager and crying and shaking with fear while my mum tried to calm me down, I was so scared of living and dying and "what ifs". I still have moments like this, but now it's my husband who calms me down. I've never self harmed in any way and have always just distracted myself. During the day I'm fine, it's just when I'm tired (or drunk. I've all but given up drinking now though, mainly because of this.)
None of the things I worry about affect my day to day life. I don't panic about leaving the gas on or anything like that. It's the huge, existential problems that get me. I think that's why I've never got help. The rational side of me knows I'm being ridiculous. Who goes to a doctor and says "I'm worried about the end of the world"? But it is starting to impact on me and my family.
So, what do I do? And does anyone have a name for this, or a similar experience? Thank in advance x
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