I've suffered with depression for as long as I can remember. I have had some major depressive episodes, usually lasting around 3 months. This time, my husband cheated on me and we split up, now he's with the OW. It's all a massive pile of shit because I was in a crap place emotionally when it all happened. And the hurt just keeps coming. I start to do better and then something else happens to bring it all to the surface or to hurt me afresh.
I've spent the majority of the day trying to convince myself that I should live. That I can cope with living. I'm not sure if I can cope with living. I have small children and I'm so, so tired. Even when they have a good night's sleep I then can't get to sleep myself.
I just want it to end. The pain. I want it over with. But there seems to be no end in sight.
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Just when you think it's getting better, it gets even worse
lifeislikeapileofshit · 19/09/2017 15:29
If you don't feel that you can keep yourself safe tonight go to A&E and they will help you stay safe and get you an assessment from mental health services. If it is less immediate thenbsee your GP tomorrow. You need support urgently to get you through this. In some areas you can self refer to crisis team, the number should be available online or through your local hospital switchboard. You can also contact samaritans 116 123 or email [email protected]
Keep setting yourself little goals to get through minute by minute and hour by hous. You can get through this, and things will get better.
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