I have a close friend who has BPD and alcohol addiction. She has been in and out of rehab facilities and MH programs for about four years. She first went to rehab for her alcoholism about 10 years ago and had a great interim period where she was dry and her MH was much better. I've been very heavily used as a support resource for about four years, including 18 months where her dd lived with us, as she was unable to live at home due to her mum's MH and alcoholism. Her dd has found her mum's illnesses very hard to deal with, and has been in long term counselling. We have also supported the dd through suicideal ideation and depression as a direct result of her mum's emotional abuse. Friend had also made many suicide attempts when her dd was still living with her/ hospitalisations etc. Very unstable. The dd moved out of our house about a month ago and is now living with her stepfather, after my friends marriage failed. (This has been on the cards for many years on my friend's side, but he finally decided he was unable to be in a relationship with her any more about ten mos ago.)
Friend finally felt well enough to work (she has been in receipt of disability benefits for a few years) and has found a live-in position working at a children's camp. She failed her CRB equivalent, but was given a chance to explain the circumstances of her run-ins with police (camp extremely short staffed and having enormous problems recruiting). She told them she had a breakdown over her marriage separation and that she was now fine. They decided to give her a second chance. The children's camp are unaware that she is still in receipt of disability benefit for BPD, and is an active alcoholic. Anyway, they took her on. (To be clear, work is extremely beneficial for her as it limits the time she can spend inside her head, and limits her time for drinking/ damaging behaviours - I am one hundred percent in favour of her working as part of her recovery).
She did really well for first couple of weeks, but now seems to be coming unravelled. I have spent about fifteen hours this week trying to support her as she moves through incoherent rants about her ex, her daughter, the fact everyone hates her. Her dd is largely no contact due to emotional abuse. She veers wildly between promises to cut everyone off completely, and pretend they are all dead, and threatening to stalk them until they die and never let go, because she doesn't want a divorce, still loves him, and will die without him. I've been trying to get her back into counselling - she dropped out of both counselling and her MH program three months ago. She has been waiting for a concurrent disorders program, but when it came up, she decided to not to go, and to look for a job instead. She has been increasingly relying on alcohol to get by.
Yesterday she lambasted me for an hour about how I support her husband and not her. The fact that I have spent hours and hours and hours trying to talk her down and stay calm enough for work (amid threats she can't go to work because x, y or z - usually that her x hasn't replied to a text) is irrelevant. (Nor have I spoken to her ex).
I know that the majority of her behaviours are linked to her BPD and low self esteem, and that the 'everyone hates me' is something she genuinely feels. It's blatantly not the case though. She is unable to see that her BPD behaviours are damaging to her relationships. You can only say 'you want me dead, you hate me' to someone so many times before they start to question their love.
I reminded her that I have supported her for years, but that I wasn't going to be a punching bag, and said I was backing off to calm down.
She seemed okay - it calmed her right down. She is now suggesting that as she is completely healthy now, she probably needs new friends who can see beyond her past.
Is it actually worth me trying to continue any sort of discussion? She is still drinking, and her BPD behaviours don't seem to have abated at all - except that thankfully she is not suicidal now (this is a huge plus - I'm not trying to minimise it.). Having known her sober and healthy, I really want her to be happy (essentially she keeps repeating she will be unhappy until the day she dies, and everyone wants her dead anyway).
Is she right that it would be better for her to get new friends? Should I just gently disengage and wish her well?
If she throws her job away because her ex won't reply to her, she is going to be both homeless and unemployed. She has been relying on both booze and her friends to talk her down for hours, three or four times a week in the last couple of weeks. She has already missed a mandatory team building day as she worked herself up. She seems to be spinning out of control again. I'm concerned that if I challenge her 'I'm completely well' narrative that will be seen as me being disloyal to her again, and could damage her self esteem further.
I know it's not my job to keep her alive/ well. But she is my friend and her illness causes her so much pain.
Any ideas? What can I do?
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BPD advice - how to support friend - long
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theancientmarinader · 15/08/2017 20:04
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