I have a dp who is currently away for 3 weeks visiting family. I couldn't go because of my job and my dd who is in school. I have no problem with him going at all although I'm a bit irritated that he's having this amazing holiday whilst I'm working etc!
Basically I've been on ADs for the last 20 years as I can't cope without them. This last 2 weeks I have struggled so badly. Totally exhausted, stressful job, teenage dd, housework etc etc. Last two days I've been crying and feeling really low. Just want to sleep and had argument with dp on amount of contact while he's away. Not really his fault due to time difference but I really needed to talk to him briefly and eventually he made the time.
However, the worst problem has been looking at my life and hating it. Not many friends, no local family, don't go out much. I see others living these rich lives in the community with friends and people who care. Since dp has been away I haven't seen many people and I have this thing in my head of how nice it would be if someone said "hey fudgy would you like to come for tea as you're on your own?"
I feel like a needy cow and basically feel like I'm totally unimportant to everyone. I don't know how I got here. I'm so angry all the time with everything and everyone. Hating my life even though I know it's ridiculous and I have no right to feel this. Does anyone of this make sense? Not got much money and FB is full of people I know having multiple holidays and doing fun stuff. Again I'm being ridiculous but I don't know how to stop these awful thoughts like no-one would really care if I wasn't here. Yet again, my logical brain knows this is not true.
What can I do to stop these awful damaging thoughts? What the hell is wrong with me? Sorry it's long and thanks for reading.
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Is this just me or do others feel like this?
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Mmfudgy · 15/07/2017 21:14
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