I hear you chip! It's awful as it strikes out of the blue. I'm at ovulation time (in a normal cycle) and the last two days ive been anxious depressed and told my OH I hated him. From out of nowhere. Poor sod had done nothing!
I get this. In fact I'm in bed at the moment, recovering from a meltdown. It's the genuine belief that our marriage is awful, DH should just leave, he doesn't love me, doesn't care about me etc I'm not talking attention-seeking foot -stamping. This is genuine distress. There's definitely a hormonal aspect to some of it. I take the pill and really struggle mid cycle so I think it's oestrogen. But it isn't all that. I've been taking some multivitamins to balance it, which feels a bit better, but still have big pits at times.
Mines definitely cycle/peri-meno related.I am on HRT,so my mood has improved,but every 4-6 weeks or so I descend into a fog of misery,that I struggle to climb out of. I have struggled with anxiety & depression many times over the past 20 odd years & have had a lot of success with CBT & counselling(AD's didn't really help),so with CBT I feel more equipped to manage these low bits but you are not alone. I see myself as always suffering from mental health issues,but I am coping much better with them now.
For anyone that's struggling, this is my arsenal. I also take 100mg setraline and the combined pill, which I'm swapping to progesterone only soon, in the hope it will improve. I have noticed a big difference since I started taking these and getting more exercise. Also trying to limit carbs and sugar as they aggravate it.
I am like this at the moment, fed up of everything and everyone, fed up of the outside world, worried about my kids all the time. Worried about my family. Don't particularly like my new house or garden, keep finding lots wrong with it that's pissing me off as it was a real struggle to get here. Sorry, not wanting to gate crash, but yes I do get really FED UP for several days at a time, not sure if there is any particular cycle.
My moods relate to my periods so something that would just upset me one week will send me really low or feel an absolute failure at another time. At least now I've figured that out it helps me put things in perspective- if I feel really dreadful I can remember that part of it is the hormones. It isn't a complete pattern - I do get very low at other times but it will take more to get me to that low place.