I wasn't going to post this. Or I was going to name change, but no one knows me, so I'm going to share something only me,my GP and one man knows. Six years ago tomorrow I stayed over at a male friends house, his girlfriend was on holiday, his child too, long story short we had arranged for him to give me a lift somewhere and it was easier to set off early, so he said I could crash in his sofa. We watched a bit is Tv, had a pizza, and one jack daniels and coke. That's the last thing I remember, I remember the glass was slippy,and felt really heavy, then I woke to him on top of me. I don't remember anything after that, I don't remember anything else, I woke up the next morning, he gave me my lift, made small talk, and I just kept thinking 'please just take me home' I got home, bathed, chucked my clothes, blocked his number,his texts,and him on every social media. This haunts me, I have depression. I have bad,deep thoughts. I'm petrified of death. I'm petrified of bumping into him. I'm petrified of everyday life. But was it rape? Is it classed as rape if you agree to stay over? I think, did it hint at something and I agreed not realising what he meant? Why didn't I say stop when I woke up. I don't mean for this to offend anyone. I just need to let this out.
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