We've only been married a week. I got so caught up in all the wedding stuff that I didn't stop to think what marriage would mean. And now I'm stuck.
We both gave up smoking the day after the wedding - a fresh start to a new life. It hasn't affected me much, I don't have any cravings or anything- I was really only a social smoker. But DH has turned into a short-tempered arsehole ever since. He constantly snaps at me and I regret marrying him already. I don't want to put up with this all my life.
Today we went shopping to get the last few bits for our honeymoon. I had a bit of a bad moment and started to have a panic attack while we were shopping - I have bad anxiety and depression, and it's been a while since I've had an attack. I didn't make a scene, I just told him I couldn't breathe and needed to sit down. He got angry and stormed away in a huff.
He came back after a few minutes and things seemed a little better, until he asked a question about what we were looking at. English isn't his first language, and I answered his question thinking he'd finished speaking. He had a go at me for not letting him finish, and when I explained that there was a long pause so I thought he'd finished the question, he went off on one about how he was trying to think of the words and started to passive-aggressively "apologising" for not being English.
I couldn't take any more so I told him I was going home and left him in the shop.
We're both home now, him on his computer, me hiding in the bedroom. We haven't said a word to each other. I don't have any friends or family nearby to go to. I don't want to deal with any of this anymore, I want to get away and escape. I can't believe how stupid I've been thinking i could actually marry someone and be happy. We're supposed to be going on our honeymoon in 2 days but the thought of spending time alone with him fills me with dread. What do I do now?
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JammyGem · 14/05/2017 15:26
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