I've been a long time lurker on here. Never started a thread myself before though.
I've hit rock bottom, I don't know what to do anymore.
I have just had gas company basically let themselves into my home. They came to fit prepayment meters because I haven't paid my bill for a year. I knew I had to I'm not stupid but I was having money issues and just kept burying my head in the sand. I now don't open my post.
They turned up and banged on the door, I wasn't expecting them today. I'm not feeling well or in a good place at all so just ignored the knocking. The more they banged on the door the more freaked out I felt. I just couldn't face anyone. Anyway, i stupidly left my key in the door and they opened it through the letter box.
I then had to face them. I'm mortified. Two of them were OK but the other one looked at me like I was shit. And then they were outside Fitting the meters talking about me and people like me. They had every right to I am shit and awful.
I'm so embarrassed and upset and hope no neighbours saw what was going on. I'm so glad my daughter wasn't here.
Im a useless human being and hate myself. I juggle everything but I just feel like there is no hope for me. My daughter deserves better than this.
I just don't know what to do anymore , I can't stop crying
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Ivehitrockbottom · 11/05/2017 14:01
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