This evening went on forever. It took me FOUR HOURS to comb the frickin nits out of the dcs hair (and my hair)! nothing flpping works. the nits are immune to everything.
Had suicidal thoughts. ds was just screaming blue murder because i wouldnt let him hit the TV and electrocute himself. Dd was telling me how much she hates me because of all my failures. The neighbours suspect me of being abusive because my children scream so much. But I don't scream back, most of the time. I'm so flipping patient even when I'm screaming inside. I have no help from anyone.
Friends have disappeared. or people I thought were friends. Ex is an abusive arse. I'm unemployable. Another sodding birthday with no money, no prospects, no time to even look for a job because ds is so awful the nursery will only take him for a couple of hours a week. My parents only want to be involved so they can reel me back in to their enabler/narcissist dynamic. They won't take no for answer. A 'no' from me means nothing. They know it, my dcs know it. Meanwhile ex has the perfect home, the perfect set up. And what do I have? A few more decades of grinding myself into the ground, for nobody to see. Who would even come to my funeral?
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Shitty day today
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user1487175389 · 30/03/2017 21:23
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