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what to do when you feel theres no hope?

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happyfrown Wed 22-Mar-17 13:32:55

theres a world full of people and I feel like im on my own, no one understands how I feel. I just get judged. hated.

no one will truly understand how hard it is to keep my head straight for 24hrs, to keep my mind from wondering into a breakdown. I hurt so much,

yesterday I was walking down the street feeling so alone, lost and unstable.

I have BPD so I send people away in fear of hurting them. or like someone one min then the next I don't want them near me. I cant handle relationships, I cant be stable for any one, kids, partners, friends.... yet the lack of family has always and will always make me feel like its not worth living. theres no future.

I cant ever see me being normal and coping. I don't ever see me being understood, who will want to be around someone like this? I have to talk my self out of selfharm and suicide cos the kids shouldn't have to go through a loss, but some days I fail and sometimes im scared one day I cant talk myself out of it.

this is all nonsense because I struggle to put it in the right words. don't know why im writing, no one can help really.

NolongerAnxiousCarer Wed 22-Mar-17 20:15:30

flowers that sounds really hard. Do you have any MH team support in place?

happyfrown Wed 22-Mar-17 21:59:29

yes they know about me. dont think no one knows what to do with me?

NolongerAnxiousCarer Thu 23-Mar-17 09:22:55

I don't know a lot about BPD, I know theres a board dedicated to it over on if that helps at all.

happyfrown Thu 23-Mar-17 18:51:42

thank you will have a look

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