Am I being selfish? Petty?

[1fedupmama]

I'm not really sure which catagory this falls under so I'll leave it here since mental health plays a bit part.
I have recently been volunteering for my mothers business, which has been great, it's brought my confidence right up, I've been feeling a million times better in myself cause I actually have some kind of worth. One of my kids starts school after the summer & the other will be in full time nursery, which means I can then do more hours & turn this volunteering into a proper job! How exciting!!!!
But then she goes & gets someone else to do my job so then my position is pretty much obsolete by the time this new person is trained up. This has actually broken my heart. I totally understand when she says it's because I'm slightly unreliable (mostly because this winter my kids have been permanently ill! So have had to miss days of work when it's gotten bad) but this was the only thing keeping me sane right now, it's my only form of adult conversation that doesn't actually involve the kids, although it was work it was like my safe haven. My mother knows how much I struggle, knows how much this job meant to me, but I'm still being pushed out. I feel I'm being selfish & petty in writing this but after all this I feel I am back to square one, don't want to leave the house, don't want to see or speak to anyone & just feel like crying 24/7. I just wanted to be normal! Have a normal job like normal mums do, being good in money for my kids, do something I can actually be proud of,.... now what?

[debbs77]

Do some training from home. There are lefty of low cost online courses you can study. Maybe it'll help you find a different interest?

[NolongerAnxiousCarer]

I can understand why you feel this way, how frustrating. Can you put a list together of the skills you have developed working there to add to you cv to apply for a similar job. Or find another vollunteering role locally to continue developing your confidence and skills.