PTSD Help need problem miscarriage

[user1489501982]

I live with Post traumatic stress from rape many years ago but it really effected my Longed for pregnancy it took 9years
I had early scan vaginal I had panic attack and could not sleep for weeks I had Cognitive behavioural therapy as I could not bear the thought of having flashbacks at Birth I could not have been examined
So I had planned for a elective c-section but ended up having emergency c- section because of growth problems
because I couldn't take the flashbacks tainting our beautiful baby

And under the circumstances it was the best birth experience I could have had the Nhs staff did there up most
I got pregnant again unplanned but still a blessing 7 months after DD born
Had hyperpremis with 1st 9months
2nd sickness lasted two weeks I said to my husband last wk I don't feel right my symptom have gone I saw midwife yesterday for my booking appointment she said Every pregnancy is different and it made me feel better
today woke up with pain and blood passed two clotts still cramping and bleeding I feel Our baby is gone My mum is desperate for me to go and have a scan but I know there's nothing anyone can do and I just don't want to have another vaginal scan Or have bloods I feel sick having blood done as it triggers me having metal in my body I said I would call midwife when she gets back at 4.30 today
I just want to hide way
My question is will they make me have scan and bloods done I am or was 5-6 weeks I just feel so sad and anxious

[Privateandconfidentialplease]

I am so sorry for your loss.
When I lost a baby at 10 & 1/2 weeks I had a scan on my tummy not vaginal (if that makes you feel any better) and I did have bloods done a few times the first week to check all was ok.
I was not forced to do this. I don't think they would make you have bloods and tests. Especially as it was so early.
If you have alot of blood then call 111 to be sure. I think they told me if I bled through more than a pad every 45 minutes to call as it was too much.
How are you feeling now op?