I'm beginning to think that I may have a personality disorder. To the outside world i look normal, I've got something to say for myself and have been told I'm very funny. I've made a success of the business I've grown from nothing. I've never been short of male attention or had difficulty making friends. BUT, something is very wrong with the way I maintain relationships and commitments. From the age of about 13 I've been systematically destroying friendships, walking out of jobs, dropping out of school, college and later on university. It's not that I'm lazy or have no ambition. It's just that friendships or work relationships become too hard for me to cope with emotionally so I cut them off. I've lost count of the friendships I've severed in recent years because people got too close. I've lost count of the jobs I've quit on because of the issues I have with authority or have made one small mistake, thought they would all see through me and see that I was a fake.
The only thing I haven't wrecked yet is my marriage. DH is an amazing man and over the past decade has stood by me through thick and thin and always been unwavering in his love. I don't deserve him because I constantly test him and try to sabotage our marriage. We have three beautiful children together and they are the centre of my universe. I've surprised myself and love every second of being their mum but I worry that my behaviour will rub off on them. They see mummy avoiding social situations, mummy turning her back on friends, quitting pretty much everything she starts. The only reason I've made the business a success is because I'm my own boss, working alone from home. Does any of this sound like I might have a personality disorder to you? I'm becoming convinced that I have. I should say that I currently take medication for anxiety and OCD.
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Does this sound like a personality disorder?
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allfurcoatandnoknickers1 · 27/02/2017 19:24
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