Tired of it all

[goneloopy]

Brief history - SAHM, 2DC, DH, been on AD on and off for years. Currently on sertraline 100mg. Been doing ok on it, but recently started feeling very low again, tired all the time, isolating myself from family and friends, don't even want to leave the house.

Don't know why I'm posting really, just wanted to get it out so to speak. Should I go back to my GP? Just want to shake this feeling of apathy and tiredness. I don't want my DC to have such a bad mother who doesn't want to take them places, who has no motivation to leave the house. I am drifting further and further away from my DH too. We barely speak, just co exist. I'm just tired of it all. I'm not suicidal as I'd never do that to my DC but I can see how easy it would be for that to happen.

[AnxiousCarer]

Definately go back to your GP. Have you ever been offered any councelling or therapy alongside your ADs as this can be really helpful to tackle the root of the problem. Not being able to take your kids places doesn't make you a vad Mum, you love them and thats what counts.

[goneloopy]

Thank you for your reply. I haven't been offered anything else. I have got so good at plastering on a smile and carrying on. My DC keep me going.

[bingolittle]

Yes - go see your GP. You have picked up on a change in your condition and hopefully they will be able to sort it. Do you see a counsellor at all? You deserve to be able to talk this out with someone on a regular basis.

Your love for your kids comes out so strongly and that is what makes you a good mum. And you are also savvy enough to know that caring for yourself is good for your kids (it took me a while to learn that myself). Thinking of you and hoping you get the support you deserve to help you through this and out the other side xx