Do I go back tomorrow? Please help

[strawberryandaflake]

I was signed off for 3 weeks last October with recurrent depression. My job is awful and I have handed in my notice, I still have about 5 weeks left to go. Last week I couldn't face going in and spoke to my union for advice about working conditions and a bullying/threatening manager. They told me to go off long term sick for the sake of my health. I just want to leave and not go back. I couldn't get a docs appointment for another 10 days or so to get another sick note. I really can't face going in tomorrow but I am scared. I am scared of being bullied. I am scared of having a meltdown at work. I am scared of the nasty team members trying to push me out of my job. I am scared that they will increase my workload again, just as they did last time in order to push me out. I can't cope with it. I am worried they'll try and put me through a disciplinary for being sick as they don't even try to help me.
Do I go back tomorrow or should I stay off until I get to the doc?

[Namechangeinto2017]

Stay off it's a job and it's not worth all this upset.

[Nix32]

Stay off. Get a doctors appointment asap, then you're covered, but definitely stay off.

[PinkFluffyChickenTrousers]

Agree with Namechange, no job is worth you feeling like this - I wouldn't go in.

[strawberryandaflake]

Thank you. Why do I feel like I am being weak?

[Chelazla]

You've handed your notice in, all they can do if you don't go is sack you. You don't want to go back so don't worry. I suspect they are on very shaky ground should they do this. Also ring docs tomorrow, my mum had a sick note when recovering from cancer and the doc was perfectly happy to agree to extend after a brief chat on phone and us collect later that day. If you explain situation it's likely yours will too. Relax op. Decide you're not going right now. You'll feel so much better. It's a job- this is your life.

[Namechangeinto2017]

Because they've ground you down and you've taken a hit to your self esteem, but you're not weak you've just reached your limit.
No one can indefinitely work in a toxic environment trust me I've been there, use the next 5 weeks to feel better in yourself so you can move on to a better job where your colleagues respect you.

[strawberryandaflake]

Thank you all. Really very appreciated xxx